So I’m thinking about becoming a business/IT major, and I was thinking up businesses I could start. And I decided I want to start my own hookah bar. And then possibly expand it into a chain. It’s an untapped market. Most towns and cities don’t have a hookah bar, but hookahs are becoming more and more popular. SO maybe when I graduate, that will be my first project.
I was going to ditch this tumblr because I felt it put me in this mood that I didn’t want to be in anymore. But I just looked back in my archives and I really enjoyed going back in time and feeling what I was feeling then. So yea. I might want do to that again for my future self.
Why am I so miserable?
(via xkissxkillx)
I hate how being 18 really doesn’t mean shit. All I wanna do is get drunk and go to a strip club but nooooo you have to be 21 for that. So I can go to war and get my legs blown off but i can’t get a shot and a lap dance?
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I like how the dime on the left has bruises all over her legs. :D](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwmoiazAQg1qbohddo1_400.png)
I like how the dime on the left has bruises all over her legs. :D
Any ideas for my bucket list tumblr?
Sleeping piglet (by bakingbarb)
MMM I just wanna touch it.
1. Sexual Orientation? Straight, but open to new experiences.
2. What I’m really bad at? Being interesting.
3. The one person who’s arms I’d like to be in? Someone who actually loved me.
4. My Best First Date? Ive only been on one real date. I met her at the Commons in Worcester and ended up at her house. We cuddled, smoked cigarettes, and I sucked her tits. . She didn’t want to go further and after we chilled that night I slept over and then never saw her again. She’s on my facebook, I guess she got back with her ex. No biggie, she wasn’t that hot (a little chunky) and she was Christian, which is a huge turn-off for me. It’s the underlying stupidity which turns me off.
5. A description of my self-esteem? Low, but sometimes it’s high. I’m self-conscious of my acne and I don’t like the proportions of my face. Plus I think I’m horribly dul and depressing. I’m such a realist that I have no imagination. At all. But I do think highly of my own intelligence. Most kids my age are retarded.
6. Who my best friends are? I literally have none.
7. My favourite book? How I Paid For College: A Novel of Sex, Theft, Friendship, and Musical Theater
8. My biggest Turn offs? Stupidity, lack of compassion and empathy, and not being an independent thinker. Prudes too.
9. A description of my best friend? My left hand sure knows how to please me.
10. My favourite animal? Dog. They are more loyal than a person ever could be.
11. Someone I miss? The people I thought my exes were.
12. The reasons behind my last break up? She was a rebound that I let myself get attached to. I wanted to love and be loved but was deathly afraid of being hurt again. I tried to make it into an open relationship but it epicly failed, due to both of our insecurities and her compulsive lying. Plus I fucked her friend/my foster sister and she fucked my friend/ foster sister’s ex. It was one hot mess, and I’m glad I don’t have to deal with it anymore.
13. What I did yesterday? Worked out at the YMCA, sat around on my newly muscular ass.
14. What my greatest achievements are? Learning how to read at the age of 3, graduating high school a year early, making a girl squirt, and surviving my fucked up life.
15. A description of the person I dislike the most? A retarded immature slam pig.
16. My favourite songs right now? Clint Eastwood by the Gorillaz
17. How my last kiss went down? It was on that Worcester girls bed. I was on top of her.
18. What I find attractive in a girl? Intelligence, independent thinking, cute face, nice body, specifically in the ass area.
19. All of the pets I’ve ever had? hairless chinese cresteds, a few other dogs, a few cats. They were all my mom’s pets or her girlfriends’.
20. Favourite flavour of ice cream? Butter Pecan. :D
21. The one place I want to be right now? At Framingham State. I need to get out of my current situation pronto.
22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me? People used to make fun of me for being fat when I was little. :(
23. Where I have lived before? I’ve lived in like 20 different houses. They’ve either been in Hawai’i, where I was born, or here in Mass.
24. I’ll love you if…. you love me for me and you aren’t annoying.
25. What is my future plans? Going to college in January, we’ll see from there.
26. An internal conflict I have with myself? I tend to think negatively all the time and I hate it. I hate life sometimes. It just seems like a whole lot of work and pain that is just futile in the end, since we just end up dying. But sometimes I feel like my mentality gets in the way of enjoying life. I guess I just take things too seriously.
27. What I’m doing tomorrow? I’m going to go to the thrift store, maybe smoke some bud with my roommates or get a little drunk at night. We’ll see.
28. What I want to be when I get older? I want to be all-knowing.
29. Most embarrassing moment? I got pantsed in middle school once. I was freeballing it.
30. Two of my insecurities? My skin, my hair line, my depressing personality.
31. What I would do if I won the lottery? Travel around the world, get my own house, have a party.
32. A description of the boy girl I like? I don’t have one right now. Forever alone. ;(
33. What I love most about myself? I like that I know more than 95% of people my age. That’s about it though. I’m pretty despicable.
34. My biggest pet peeves? PEOPLE WAKING ME UP EARLY IN THE MORNING. I got in a fight with my roommate over this one today.
35. What bands I’ve seen live? none. I’ve always been broke. But now that I got some cash hopefully that will change.
36. Who my best friends are? I have no friends.
37. How many kids I want in the future? 2 so they can entertain each other.
38. My idea of a perfect date? Chillin in the house, watching movies, listening to music, eating, cuddling.
39. What I’m really good at? Reading, thinking negatively, eating pussy.
40. Most traumatic experience? Going in and out of foster care since the age of 10 was pretty hard. My mom trying to kill herself and blaming it on me was pretty bad too. But I thinik the worst was sacrificing everything for a girl and having her cheat on me like it was nothing.
41. Where I would like to live? I wanna go back to Hawai’i some day.
42. The nicest thing anyone’s ever said to me? I want to be with you forever. What a load of shit that was.
43. Do I like where I am right now? No. I’m in a program with 8 other foster kids who are all stupid and selfish. They have a jail mentality. I just wanna go to college.
44. What I can hear right now? The staff here Greg mumbling to himself while looking through the med closet. He has a Carribean accent so everything he says is funny. :P
45. My relationship with my siblings? I don’t talk to my fraternal brother. All he’s ever done is lie, cheat, and steal. When I got put in foster care again I basically kicked everyone out of my life who wasn’t a positive influence. I have enough dragging me down without other people helping.
46. All of the pets I’ve ever had? hairless chinese cresteds ftw. actually I’m gonna make my next post a picture of one. :)
47. My biggest worry currently? One of these punk ass niggas stealing my shit.
48. Something I’ve wished for repeatedly? Someone to love me.
49. My relationship with my parents? My biological mom is in Georgia. We don’t really speak. When she moved I refused to go and was basically a runaway for a year. That was the period I started this tumblr actually. She’s just self-centered and crazy and kind of stupid. She got arrested when she went to Georgia for shoplifting for example.
50. What words make me the best about myself? What?
51. Something I should have said a long time ago? I’m sorry to all of those I’ve hurt. And I should have said goodbye to certain people a long time ago. Also, thanks to everyone who has supported me throughout my ordeals.
52. What my last text message said? My phone got wet. -_-
53. What I hate most about myself? I’m lazy, depressing, it takes a lot of work (and hair) to make me look attractive, and I’m kind of a pussy,.
54. Biggest turn on’s? Intelligence, round booty, cute face, a lady on the street but a freak on the sheets. Also, genuine love.
55. What words upset me the most? Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.
56. What I hate/hated most about school? All the stupid self-important teenagers. The lack of actual education. WAKING UP EARLY
